This afternoon Joshua was looking out the back door and up on the railing was a squirrel. The squirrel stopped what he was doing and stared right at Josh. They stayed like that for several moments before the squirrel skittered off. It was really cute.
Tonight we went to the Children's Cancer Center for the family dinner night. It was good to see some of our cancer friends that we haven't seen lately and to hear how their children are doing. Like every visit not all of the stories are happy and it extracts a rather large psychic toll on us. It is hard to listen to another parent talk about their child dying or being in severe pain, receiving what seems to be endless chemo treatments. But there is great strength in numbers and we need to be there for each other. As parents of cancer kids only we can truly understand the raging current of emotions that courses through us all. It is tough, but I think it is helpful. A child is the most precious treasure we are every granted the opportunity to cherish and take care of. The demons and the doubts get a little foothold for a while but eventually they are banished back to the shadows on the edges.
In the morning Joshua is off to the clinic again to get a finger stick to check his counts. Hopefully the platelets he got stuck and has not dropped again. Renee and I are both expecting his ANC to be really low, he is acting like it is getting low. If it is he will be trapped inside for the weekend, he really wants to go swimming. It is hard on him to not be able t go out and do the things he wants. He has been asking me for a couple of days to take him for a walk on the golf course but we can't until his counts come up. With any luck he will be back in the safe zone early next week and we can make up for some of the lost time.